BLOG: Friends
I get by with a little help from my friends.
Well, I think my cold is finally winding down. After a day of pure illness and misery yesterday, I finally feel like I’m on the mend. Yay! That being said, no gym time yet, but I have it on my schedule and I am itching to go!!
I’m still having trouble grasping how close we are to the end of the semester. It seems like we just started school last week. Now, Thanksgiving is around the corner and then it’s finals week and then another semester is done. It’s hard to believe.
In other news, I’m making a bigger effort to keep my friends in my life. I often have trouble keeping in touch with people, even the people I care about. My lack of communication doesn’t mean that I don’t value you, it means that I don’t have time to adequately show you how much I value you. It’s frustrating.
However, through some meticulous scheduling, I’m finding time to stay connected to the people I care about. Does this make me a bit uptight about sticking to my calendar? Well, yes, but I was uptight before so I guess it doesn’t matter too much.
It doesn’t help that I’m a terrible texter. I don’t understand the technology but it’s a practicality for friendship. I can understand how it’s great to get small info to people quickly, but for whole conversations? I’ve never seen how that works well. For me to really get to “be” with people, I need to be face-to-face, one-on-one.
Big groups confuse me –I never know where to direct my attention. One-on-one is so much easier, and then I get the time to get to know my friends even better. Unless it is a very tight-knit group, like a pair of friends who are a romantic couple and me, the group dynamic–even if it’s just three people–always leaves something to be desired. I can’t connect with people on an individual level if there are five others to connect with too. It’s exhausting. Maybe it’s my introvert side showing it’s colors or maybe I’m just lazy. Either way, I’m glad to have my friends and I’m sorry I didn’t put you first sooner.
